10/6/09 10:50 pm
It's weird to say, I've started LEGIT looking for a place off campus for January 2010-January 2011.
I spent the day pretending to do work, but in reality first playing around with all the possible schedules I could have for the next two semesters (wtf? only 2 semesters until I graduate?) and trying to figure out the classes. I've come up with no solutions except that I am not going to be eligible for on-campus housing because I'm going to have to go part time student and get a job. The rats, too, will have to get jobs and find apartments to sublet.
No, but in all seriouness. Today alone, I've emailed over 20 people who posted ads on available housing (all pet friendly) telling them my situation. I may end up doing one of two things:
1. Sublet for January 2010-May 2010 and live at home during the summer, which will be a NEW home as my parents are scheduled to move out (be evicted) January 1st (Happy New Year....ugh). This, keeping in mind that I cannot find a place to stay the year and if Dr. Sheynberg lets me do what I want to do in his new practice, which is highly unlikely to happen. Or that BAFN will actually pay me to do stuff.
2. Legit rent January 2010-January 2011 with the thought in mind that I will find a plausible part-time job for Spring 2010 (not just poop job, REAL job) or that the big W figure out a way to keep me on a legit part-time schedule for Spring 2010 (actual working hours and jobs) and then can put me on full-time work for the summer.
I'm scared, terrified, excited, anxious, anticipating.
I even called up Doc Hamilton to inquire about the apartment above the meadows (how spooky) and he pretty much okay-ed my zoo but said that he would prefer that I wouldn't live there alone...apparently no one really stays long there if they attempt being there alone. Apparently there's also a lot of grounds work to be done around there but I wouldn't mind because it would be out-door-sey stuff and maybe people from AZ would want to help out, considering the meadows is like a second home (sort of).
Living at the meadows would be a lot of awesome outdoors time for Rem as well, as there is SO much room to run around...SO much room. And considering I'd only be going to school part time and have LOTS of time in the summer, if Doc would okay it, I might get Rem a little sister ;] and work on a full-time job and apartment in Brooklyn for the future or something.
Everything is so, so, so uncertain and it scares me and it feels like I'm dreaming, but maybe all it really feels like is that I'm growing up, which is a terrifying thought because I don't feel like I'm ready to yet. In some senses, more than others, maybe, but still, not just yet. I feel like I haven't had my time yet. Or something. I'm not really sure. The aspect of growing up or growing old hasn't been very nice to me as of late, and it scares me. And I'm scared. But also excited. In a sense.
This weekend-Maize Maze & Beatles cover show with Mike (ZOMG)
Next week-lots of movies/lectures to attend for classes
Next weekend-Dog Training Training at the SCFA Animal Shelter
Following week-Exams and more lectures to attend
Following weekend-Unnamed social & pledge project
Week after that-All's quiet on the Rutgers front
Weekend after that-Hopefully home
I'm doing shit. Marina does shit. Fuckkkk